Venting outlet now

tearless cry

2010-05-17T22:15:00.002+08:00

i can only cry here. let my words be my tears. let it flood the blog.
guess what. my words are like my tears. i actually don even know what n how to write anymore. feel better thou. was so on the verge of dropping. lucky for u bloggy. im like crying in my heart now without the tears :') im tired

nobody know

2010-05-17T21:48:00.002+08:00

nobody know how bad is my situation. nobody is here to help me. to comfort me. to support me. to lend me a shoulder. a listening ear.
i cant confide in pple too. i don trust them no one.
when i had you i chose not to tell you to not burden you. when there is nobody i just got to swallow and bear it all.
sometimes i just feel like giving up. how good would it be if i ended it then. no more such troubles anymore. but i cant do it now. too much on hand too much debts. how can i leave just like that. but it did came to mind... insurance might help haha :(
nobody believes me. cant blame huh i don say the whole truth. i don say the bad no trouble no problem no nothing bout me.

teardrops in my heart

2010-05-15T20:33:00.002+08:00

silently.... crying

im really stuck.. and greatly disappointed..

how can the world be like this? why is there no real friends and those chivalrous people who will help those in need? i just need abit of help... a little bit of love... and a little bit of sympathy.. ok i need money

really tired... and stuck.. all my own fault for the way things become.. too late damage done

thank you bloggy.. for being here and for being able to let me say all i wanted to.. cant trust no one huh...

=)

2010-05-08T12:26:00.001+08:00

im trying to move on... kind of hard...
i guess this time i really fell in love...

surprisingly i did fall in like too i think...
so complicated and mixed feelings....

perhaps i should just let things flow? maybe...

:'(

2009-12-22T23:47:00.002+08:00

feel so sad... heart break...

theres so much i feel so much i want to say...

i dono really tired...

dear i miss you... i really miss you... :'(

it hurts... do you know? can you hear my heartache? my heartbreak?

tired... i want to talk to you... i miss you...

One year later

2009-12-17T21:54:00.005+08:00

The me now! (getting old)

Ok actually its more than a year later since my last entry... Im kind of surprise that there is an increase in the no of views for my blog haha.

Anyway updates! Its been one and half year in NOTU and well, its gonna end soon. My contract is for 2 years and im truly thinking whether to continue or not. Just to say its long story so in a dilemma now... Apart from this, its the 1st time i went overseas as in reeeally far country - USA! Was a fulfilling trip kinda miss the times there.

One thing i've not been blogging is that there is not much need of a venting outlet now. When i first started this was because its the craze then and seems like the whole world's blogging. Just like everyone's on facebook now. Subsequently its a venting outlet as the name suggest so i can direct my anger sadness etc somewhere. But as time passes plus the days got busy, I dont have much time and interest thus this blog 'ended'.

Happened to thought of it today so might as well write something. I might just revamp my whole blog when i have the mood or time and till then stay tune! :p

(Nice diary actually haha maybe I should start blogging again. Anyway everything practically remains the same did not change at all! Im sure i will be able to pick up again.)

Oh i forgot one important thing! Hehe im now a part time model =p Ok really amatuer and nothing much to boast about. Still happy though. :) Just hope no one reads this!! Blogging is just for memory sake in case one day i get so senile.

Feels good to type so much rubbish.

New Job

2008-06-30T22:01:00.005+08:00

Finally embark onto a new chapter of my life... Close to a month in the new job... Cant disclose much except that I am a coordinator in NOTU.. Enclosed a picture of my desk!

Haha this pic was taken in the early stage.. Now there are more stuff to make it look more mine =)

Next is my new hp: K850I green

My bday gift from the gals...

The rare guest! And as usual, she give me face!! Wahaha

Not forgetting my new puma big 'runaway' bag from mummy haha...

Anyway back to the new job, it is kind of challenging and interesting... Quite hard as I need to learn alot of new things and must be fast... Will see how it goes.. As for the 1st case, it is on 27/6 fri... Everything is smooth and thank you for making it happen.. You will always be remembered for the kind gesture and making my 1st experience a memorable one...

Giving up is really hard.... Im very tired.... I dono what to do.... Its time... Is it?

2008-06-18T22:13:00.001+08:00

was very happy cos bought new hp and work getting better......
but now......

updates will b up when i have pictures and in the mood....

1st time clubbing with joseph! (might b the last too hahah)

2008-05-26T01:44:00.004+08:00

Went clubbing with wansin and her fren n boliao ask joseph along! Haha.. Good to have a neighbour to share cab!

My neighbour! On the 14th storey haha..

Hehe lazy or most imptly dirty to use hand so wansin feed mi the chicken wings!!!

My fav piece of the night!

Vampires...

........... Hai.. its just so tiring... n confusing... n i dono....

Redang trip

2008-05-14T21:48:00.006+08:00

Went Redang with yingwei, julynn and zhiying during last weekend... A good way to relax and be away from everything.. Enjoy the pics...

On the bus trip there

Reached! Our laguna nice resort

The very clear water.. (with my feet underneath hehe)

The 3 gals... Nice pic i took!

Our resort pool

We are in the jacuzzi!

Hehe nice zi pai

Happy

Hehe sweet and sexy?

Taken with the big booty! :p

Taken in the balcony of our room (so dark loh)

Last but not least, mo mo cha!!!

I miss you... I love you...

Clubbing as usual

2008-05-05T23:00:00.005+08:00

Nothing much to say.. Saw Lawrence and Sebastian.. Should be my last clubbing.. Or at least will be long before i go again. I will revert back.

:'(

2008-04-28T19:13:00.003+08:00

I thought its over... But I still cant get over I guess.. I still feel it...

I dont know what I want
I dont know how I feel

What should i do...

Are you even reading this? Do you still remember?

Clubbing after clubbing!!

2008-04-21T14:32:00.005+08:00

Wahaha jus went st james on sat!!! My goodness... Thurs mos and sat st james... Mus start to control. Anyway went with wansin again haha.. My new clubbing kaki really... Accompany her to meet up with a new friend whom she only know for like half a day of msn?? But overall quite ok.. Had 'counselling' sessions somemore haha..

She asked mi to just look at one side and well, this is the outcome.

Posing in the toilet

Met winnie!! What a surprise...

Hmm.. I dono where this place is.. But i think i look nice in this pic and the 1 b4 this!

Must show off the earring! (Sis's thou)

Not forgetting the 2 guys darryl (green) and alvin (white) -- why is the photo so blur?

Nite out with the rare and 2 posers!

2008-04-19T02:20:00.004+08:00

Went out with yumin and wansin for chill out drink at the arena then yingwei join us to pass me something then around 1130 go home...

That was the original plan but... yumin did go home at that time but the 3 of us end up having abit fun then end up went to mos too!! But we went home at 2am.. Ok pics time!

Starting with the rare!!

Next the 2 posers!

Scooping up the lychee

And passing to yumin!

Then we went mos! This are 3 of my ex-colleagues: ??, Alex, Alan

Still posing!!!

The first guy wansin took pic with.. or was he the second?

More guys she wants to take photos with... (and im being drag into it)

Now even yingwei is being drag...

Alot of guys?? No!! The list is not exhaustive.. Wansin is crazily looking for guys to take pics and end up mi and yingwei either drag in and help with the phototaking haha...

KoKo Krunch!!!

2008-04-09T22:02:00.004+08:00

Hehe so cute!!! So big loh Mr KoKo Krunch Bear. He came to cold storage to promote his koko krunch of course.. Hehe end up im like any other small kiddos there.. I TOOK PIC WITH HIM!!! Ahahaha...... (Evidence below :p)

See... Hehe

First time clubbing NOT with the gals!

2008-04-03T12:49:00.013+08:00

First time clubbing with other pple except the gals. Kind of fun cos there are singtel gals walking around to take free pictures with polaroid camera! Starting to like clubbing... Why!?!?

Found a new clubbing kaki!! Hehe long time no see and the 1st thing we meet up to do was club! Haha and it happen to be a singtel event that nite so free pics we got!

'Transparent' me except for my glowing top!

Im good loh... Finished it like so fast unlike wansin!!

Actually we got 5! Hehe free mah... :p

One of the free pic taken with the singtel pretty gals!

Vote!!! My sis says this pic is nicest of all but i thought i look ugly here!

Anyone opinions!??!

Maroon 5 concert!!

2008-03-26T15:46:00.008+08:00

Haha yes i was at the concert but nope i was not in the concert.

Was standing right outside (just beside the glass panel) selling tiger beer!! They are real good.. and the audience was very fun too! Can hear them scream and even sing along! Very high though we were only outside.

Well we could have gone in and watch if my dear sis is not so nervous. REFUSED to go against the rule and sneak in. Well the kiasi gal as usual :p hahaha

Still, had a 'fun' time opening cans and cutting fingers while listening and peeping into the concert hall. Lucky for the super big screen. They are soooo cool!! And of cos shuai! Hehe.. (too bad nvr go into the dressing room though we walk past it!)

Proof: Tiger beer tops (oh no nvr kapok the maroon 5 hand board!!)

Songs

2008-02-26T11:37:00.005+08:00

Nice canto song by Andy and Sammi
‘其实你心里有没有我’

若爱上妳怎么躲梦妳迷人笑渦如我每天总偷偷想妳这应否算是傻
在这芳心燃起恋火但你明瞭我么而每一天日子轻轻飞过谁愿分秒记著我

但愿你容我接近你更多谁預算情爱这样难捉摸 Oh No
长夜里点点星火犹如妳窗边经过 (长夜里我要化做你眼中星星一顆)
凝望我闪出光彩照亮心窩 (来让你每个晚上亦望见我)

让我再次回忆当初是我爱你太多
其实有否一点喜欢我 (才会每天这么想知你)
为何始终不太清楚 (其实心里有没有我)

Yah i really wonder who will remember me, think of me, miss me every single sec..
Those in red really portray how i feel...
This whole song really relate well...

Another nice song (chinese) by 许茹芸 and 阿穆隆
‘男人女人’

爱爱爱爱了几回也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
不会再让我(你)心疼　

一等再等你就是我等的那个人

多么希望你是对的人

This actually represent my way of thinking...
I understand but just keep hoping someone will appear...
And I really cant hurt anyone cant be heartless...
Yah... i really need a 好人... So that I wun be hurt anymore...

When will the ‘对的人’appear?

Meaningful quotes... Of love

2008-02-24T23:15:00.003+08:00

What is it about love that makes us so stupid.
(I want to know too... So that i can avoid being stupid and ultimately, in love)

For love all you need is a little stamina.
(I do agree.. but i think its more then just a little..)

Tis better to have loved and lost then never to have love at all.
(I know its true.. But no. I would rather not love then suffer the lost.)

To have... But not to hold...
(That is love)

Pictures!!

2008-02-15T12:55:00.005+08:00

Haha suddenly felt that this blog is so dead with no 'colours'. So i shall add some pictures to liven it up!

1st day of Chinese New Year

Day 2

As for days 3 and 4 we didnt have chance to take pics together so too bad..

This is my cute little sis!! Finally a nice pic of her taken by meimei.

Guess thats all. Will update blog more often when free and if possible with pics!

Hai.. LOVE...

I need to understand myself more

I need to know what I want

New Year

2008-02-09T15:38:00.000+08:00

........
Emotions are misleading as they change super fast....
One moment its this one moment its that....
Only after calming down and really feel and think, will the real one emerge....

I thought i changed.... thought... somehow im still mi.... guess i just dont know what to do...
I dont know myself anymore... Or should i say i never did though i once thought i did...

New Year Resolution
Smooth sailing life

Hmm....

2008-01-13T15:41:00.000+08:00

Special day today...

Realised the ugly side finally...

Im glad =)

Money Money Money

2008-01-09T15:24:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! Got a tuition assignment at serangoon. Ok not that near my place but pay ok so yes lah. But 3 times a week which are mon, wed and fri. Might be tiring. Then got another starhub cashier lobang so means more income!! Haha. Graduating soon le.... The real job is going to come soon... And full time tutor is one choice too??

Totally broke now. Just hope pay comes in soon and i can shop till drop! I need someone to 养我。。。 Where is my sugar boyfriend?!?!

Sick..... Till now

2008-01-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

Ok my cough and nose block still persist sian... And today the giddy spells back again. Imbalance of the littles beads in my ear again maybe?

Nway think im going to be single for one year. To sort all thoughts feelings etc. And of course to test... Time tells right? About everything. So yup one year must remind myself haha.

Ok called the police for the 1st time in my life. To the rescue of my friend but end up its not exactly desired but nvm.

Sch starting soon... No more fun soon... Sch going to end soon too... IM GRADUATING!!!! And this is scary....

Oh and clubbing this wed! Haha i hope. So miss my friends. Going to visit them then go zouk :p

Sick.....

2007-12-28T16:55:00.000+08:00

Cough like im dying.... actually is not really coughing but throat vv dry and got alot of like deep phlegm so when cough is like vv pain (chest area). Nose block too but better after taking medicine. So today no work for me! Decided to rest well to prepare for sat and mon work.

Is falling for me easy? Or isit just easy to fall for any person but the maintaining is the hard part?

:'(

2007-12-26T16:25:00.000+08:00

Results back.... Not good... Ok maybe not as good as i thought it would be. Actually is not that bad compared with my past results. At least i got an A-!

I thought i feel better due to distractions... But happen to hear some songs and feelings just gushed back... Im tired of crying....

Headache

2007-12-26T12:10:00.000+08:00

Im not any pretty gal but just because im guai im attractive?? *Faint*
Headache... Too much distractions and too much internal thoughts and struggles...
Plus not enough slp and too much 'entertaining' to do. Im brain dead.

HEADACHE!!!!!

Fun!!

2007-12-25T15:57:00.000+08:00

Haha yesday was not as hectic as i imagine. The crowd came in after countdown lah. But yup had fun because i get to take order!! Haha kind of fun. To no need rely on the senior and just hurrily help out. Starting to love the job!! :p

Oh and weili is so zhun!! Haha he just anyhow say maybe pple will get my no then i was telling him pls lah i not any pretty girl plus there so many sexy babes playing around why would any sane guy ask me. Then he say see loh. Haha and guess the guy drunk le. Cause he did ask for my no. By the time he wake up he should have forgotten bout me :)

梁靜茹---崇拜

2007-12-24T14:06:00.003+08:00

Timbaland - Apologize

2007-12-24T14:06:00.001+08:00

Both make me really sad.... And somehow depicts abit of my feelings and situation..
But im not exactly like that... Because im going to wait...

Hurt

2007-12-24T12:56:00.000+08:00

You change your profile... I had to tell you to change then but u just change it now... Very hurt.. Sad...

I may look normal i may look strong... In fact im not.

How would we be 6 yrs later?

Better now

2007-12-23T19:30:00.000+08:00

Haha 2nd day has been better. Maybe because i decided to focus on work and not think of other stuff. Of cos on off will but yesterday was busier since know better the work. But i realise MOS is real fun!! Haha nxt time can go club there. Somemore i know the backcrew wahaha.

Xmas coming... i will be busy serving and squeezing ard and kena elbowing by pple. What will you be doing.... Will definitely think of you.. But i guess you will not. You wil be having fun somewhere with the gang rite? So wish you to see this.

Dont know what to put here

2007-12-22T16:44:00.000+08:00

Yesday just start work. Really long hours. Reach home at 7plus 8am. Very tiring got to stand all the time. Worse part of all, everything doesnt tally with what the agency told us. She say there will be shift work from 6pm to 7am but no i dont think so. From tonight onwards everyone will just die working. And!! They only count our pay till 530am!! What the * loh.

Having a headache now. Not exactly due to work but more of the mind. They keep on stressing how hard the work is and how the crowd would just make us not want to work there anymore. Its true that there are alot of pple and very tiring (given the things we do and the DURATION) but for me the reason abit different.

When i was working yesday, i felt dots cos the whole world is having fun while im doing work. But the main thing is. The crowder the place is, the more lonely i feel. Felt so lost and empty. Actually is sadness. Im so afraid to go to work again because im scared i would not be able to take it. The place actually remind me of and everything said. And i cannot imagine is having fun and drinking with friends. Esp during xmas eve. Ok i think im going to be sick soon. Headache and heavy head. Like the feeling you are going to have a fever kind.

Got to go prepare for work le.... I dont want to work

I wonder if you see this....

Exciting!! Interesting?? Ok just normal

2007-12-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

Haha got the server job at MOS! From tonight onwards wun be at home at night till 2 weeks later. Its just a plain waiteressing job to be exact. But its a good avenue for me to be free. At least i should be super tired to think and just numb myself with all the things haha. Heard that this kind of job is really really tiring. Well all the better right? Haha i better catch some sleep before my body clock turns!!

Kind of look forward to it yet feels so scared and lonely. Dont know anymore.

Updates!!

2007-12-20T21:46:00.000+08:00

Ok tons of things to update on. 1st this is the darling i bought in the sitex 07 fair! Haha i think this is a very good deal im sure everyone will agree. This is a sony 4gb mp3/mp4. Original price $399 but i got it at $199 only!! Whats more they actually gave me the premium package which include lanyard, screen cleaner plus protector, case and earphone free! Too bad the last white one was 'snatched' by the lady just before me haha. But i love this sweet pink too! Wanted to get camera also but no money haha.. Im a poor girl..

Ok actually dont really need a camera. I wanted one for a reason but now the reason cant be applied anymore.

Then i went clubbing with cheyin!! 1st clubbing experience. Ok then my mood wasnt really the happy go for fun kind but did find it interesting. Not the part where we got to queue like one hour to get into zouk, nor going to the arena and mos with weird age group. But i think that watching pple enjoying their time and me drinking seems fun. Of cos the after effects are like shit. I was sleepy giddy and puke next morning. Although im sure i will go nxt time but the reason is definitely not bcos clubbing is fun. Haha

Lets see what else.... alot alot of events ba. But i forgot and think should be not very significant. Will blog if remember.

Lastly... Im really tired... alot of complex thoughts and feelings only one should and would know. I will live.

Changes to blog

2007-12-18T01:08:00.000+08:00

Actually i might change the blog skin.... When i chose this then i was very happy looking forward to the 'publishing' of it. But now...

Whatever that look abit weird or sad wasnt like this before... But now....

I guess i need to sleep....

Not well

2007-12-18T00:55:00.000+08:00

Not well... No matter which aspect you are looking from. Talking bout it i feel like puking and stomach very pain. Diarrhea again.. Somemore been losing weight... No appetite of cos but it seems like my weight just keep dropping no matter what i eat.
Very tired all the time... Guess cant slp well or eyes too 'tired'. Feel quite drain....

Long time no blog... Cant really blog.. Ok i really dont feel well. Sian....

Too much pain.... It seems like torturing myself helps.. The greater im torturing my body the lesser pain i feel.. Or maybe too tired and too busy so the pain feels lessen. Haha i dono what im talking bout.

Dont know to publicise my blog or not... It wasnt meant for others.... But... I dont know... Guess i will just put for awhile... In hope someone will realise... Like i say its not meant for the world but one....

Kind side of Singaporeans

2007-11-28T16:08:00.000+08:00

Today on the way to school for exam, (MRT at 815am -_- to harbourfront) I saw a really mmm 'nice' scene (not the bad but the good part). Actually this lady boarded on the same station as me. Initially she seems ok but I realised she looked abit pale. Then aft some time as the train is very crowded and we had no place to sit, she suddenly squat down (diagionally in front of me) and pressed against her head. I thought she might be feeling giddy or not well but i cant do much since i got no seat plus im studying for exam. Ya i know im abit cruel.

Anyway, finally before reaching little india, she stood up and suddenly just fainted. The lady beside her was so shocked cos she fall onto her. Of cos all of us were shocked but a lady and a guy were so sweet! The lady reached for her and tried to talk to her. The guy offered help by asking the rest of the passengers to shift a pathway for them to get down the train. Then when they reach the station, the guy and another very nice guy helped to carry her out. She really cant walk and in a way lost conscious so 2 guys were needed. The lady she fell on and the other helpful lady both followed them out while one of them carried the fainted lady's bag.

I was really very comforted in seeing that Singaporeans are not as selfish and nonchalent about others. In fact we are very helpful but perhaps in certain circumstances or in unsure situations, then we might not dare to react. But today im truly touched but what the 4 persons did. Just hope the lady is fine. I wonder why she fainted. Perhaps she did not have breakfast and thus feel giddy because initially she really look ok. And btw I saw her even before we board the train at the station.

Finally!

2007-11-23T00:47:00.000+08:00

Haha finally willing to study. Did 2 mindmaps yeah!!
Finally got message but its on my studies @_@
Oh and finally got pple look at my blog!! Haha a surprise actually and my sis thinks must be her friends and i think so too! I never publicise my blog :p

Btw i love Gatsby's advertisement!! The advertising company is good. The ads from the launch till now featuring mu chun are so cute and outstanding!! Haha he look gay but i love it!

Bored again..

2007-11-16T21:34:00.000+08:00

Guess I just dont want to start studying. Im just plain lazy. In no mood to do ntig. Dar dar i miss you.

Amazing.... A must watch 于丹《论语》心得

2007-11-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

This show is on channel U, every tues 9.30pm.
My sis and I both think this is a very good show, its this 于丹 professor talking bout 《论语》. She explains all the very profound teachings in it and gives us some insights on how to treat people, ourselves and live.

One of the story is: There is this student who ask Confucious to give him one word for him to use and adhere to live thru his whole life. Of cos being the nice man he is, he answered the mean question with calmness.

恕

And with this he added 8 more words as explanation.

己所不欲勿施于人

So to elaborate, it means forgiveness is the way to live your life. And whatever that you do not want to happen to you, you should refrain from doing that to others.

Another very nice phrase is

于人玫瑰手留余香

which means by helping others you will find happiness. Direct translation of the above would be give someone a rose, the smell would linger in your hand.

More of this would be post nxt week. Haha provided i remember what the person say.

Bored

2007-11-13T13:05:00.001+08:00

So bored.... Nothing to do.... Actually lots to do and that is studying.... But i dont feel like starting. I know i must i should and i will. I promised so i must jiayou to score well. Jiayou ba!!! "-_- Anyway saw this laughing baby on youtube and thinks he is so funny haha. Ok thou he really lose to the whatever gal but he is cute in another way! Haha must be he thinks his dad is damn stupid and boliao for playing golf using a remote :p

Eeww!!! Help!!!

2007-11-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

My house is infested with ants!!! They are like crawling all over the kitchen and even the living room sofas!!! So scary... Disgusting loh really hope this would stop like real soon. And im living with irritating people. ESP ..... I HATE THEM

Hey everyone

2007-11-09T22:42:00.000+08:00

Hey if there is anybody else apart from meimei and weiwei reading my blog, do leave something at the blabber section k. Haha thanks!

Wanted to add some video or pics then realise nothing interesting haha.

What a 'black' day

2007-11-07T20:37:00.000+08:00

I wonder who was the one who suggested wearing black for the presentation loh. Really end up we all face black black and tutors oso. Haha all that for 'easy matching'. Now really super matched to the color. Heard from the 1 grp mate that the one who suggest is the ONE loh. Win liao.

Ok the story is for the presentation we are suppose to focus on one aspect and our grp happen to choose intervention. HOWEVER our dear tutor actually din like that aspect cos she prefer prevention and resilience. Thats the problem with 2 incommunicating tutors. Just hope we dont get that bad a grade. So disheartening :'(

Haha this is going to be my longest post ever. As i was saying, today is real bad bcos the nxt hurdle - my adol test, is like shit! Ok maybe not that bad but i dont think it would be any good. Plus my other 2 assignments pale out compared to the rest. Hai... so scared that im not able to score well.

Oh and my that super clever gong sis is making mi crazy!! Tooty lah anyhow dl antivirus. All her fren fault for suggesting to her. Then she also blur blur nvr ask mi. Now hang. Very good.

And there is my little cousin. Yes u sw! If you are reading this you better buck up on your studies k. Dont waste mummy money and dont let her hopes go down. She give you money for mp3 when you got good results. So are you going to give her back money when your results not so good? Must guai guai k. Jiayou jiayou!! Da jie jie and xiao jie jie love you and support you morally!!

Disappointed

2007-11-06T19:58:00.000+08:00

Sian so i hungry my business no need worry isit. Ok maybe im being bias and base it on only one account but i really do think so. Dont know dont care sian.

Oh nway guess wat, im good at prediction! Haha i was late for meeting but nway it end like 1pm when we are meeting at 12pm. So i shouldnt go loh. Really waste of time. Damn boliao. And the selfish shit is real selfish!! Aiya i dont know lah. Oh and now then i realise out of the 6 grp members got 5 no cls today!! Its like we went SPECIALLY back just for 1 hr loh. The rest luckier since they got private transport. Only me dio the shit! Double sian.

This is killing me!!!

2007-11-05T19:24:00.000+08:00

Ah!!!!!! ANGRY!!!! IRRITATED!!!! So u busy u big isit. I canot make it then not a problem isit. Why i cant make it for the meeting it still goes on at the timing and when u cant make it u want to change! Wat the ************* :'(

Haha not that angry actually :p Was very before went for test. But aft the 3232 test i feel happy! Not that i answered well thou, but it seems better than the previous one. Just hope everything turns out good cos i dont want to be below the mean again!!!

Cute!!

2007-11-04T00:41:00.000+08:00

Yingwei found this somewhere and i find it so cute that i had to put in here. Of cos this is dedicate to my dar dar :p I will wait for you to be back!

豁然开朗，突然开窍。

2007-11-02T17:53:00.000+08:00

Had a talk mmm not really a talk its more of just a chat with someone. Know alot of things which helps mi alot. And somehow it didnt affect me. I thought i would hmm dono that all things said would matter or i would feel like a negative way but surprise! I feel normal and maybe abit postive. Haha cos enlightened.

Anyway I just miss my love and really hope time flies so i can see him again. Just hope everything will turn out to be what i want. Dont think it will be another disappointment. :p

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2007-11-02T13:05:00.000+08:00

So SO SO angry irritated vexed etc. Emotionally unstable. Haha and i know the reason. Jus feel sian. Really need a place to vent everything. So tired and fed up and i dont know what else. I hate doing projects, going for meetings esp those that are not productive and just plain boliao. Im damn far from meeting place ok. I dont have car ok. Cant even go msn and have an online meeting. Meet before yet nothing concrete came up. Boliao! Faint.....

Busy with so much work. 2 tests 2 assignments and 1 presentation nxt week! Going crazy le. With selfish irritants around, it make it worse. Just hope everything will be over asap. AH!!!!!!!!!! Im so tired of all this.

AH!!!

2007-10-29T00:49:00.000+08:00

Sian!! Guess im really bad at IT. Nvm im sure i will be able to figure out alot bout all this blog functions like REAL SOON!!!

Hai... bare with this boring blog for the time being. Haha that is if anyone is even reading.

Hi all!!

2007-10-27T16:45:00.000+08:00

Hiyo due to boredom and a desire to help, i decided to create this blog to help those 'in need'.
Some pple may not be able to get help at certain times. By help i mean advices, listening ears or etc for their problems.
So, i would encourage pple to email me and i will post it out for all.

Of cos i will be blogging own stuff as usual. In case no one ever need my help. :p

No worries, your particulars will never be disclosed. Of cos you don't even have to tell me your name. But maybe some nick-name that i can address.